Talk to my troubled brain
If you can feel my pain
So much hurting that's living in my head
Now I can barely breathe
And now my heart's disease
And my name and my life has been stepped
on and on'
No no!

You made a fool out of me
There is no way out
I'm going down the drain

The name of God in vain
You pushed me I'm insane
Dissolution is knocking on my door
Can't stop my bitter tears
Oh take away my fears
Body and soul is blown up in pieces

Oh Cry out I want to be free
Dry out I want to know truth

Let me drain my feelings out
Lough like a drain
My emotions scream
Let me drain!

So I can't speak my mind
anata sae mo blind
I am left in a land with just solitude
Has this become my fate
Who's next be your bait
Vicious cycle repeating on and on

Cry out I want be loved
Dry out I want see dreams
Oh Cry out I want to be free
Dry out I want to know truth

Let me drain my feelings out
Lough like a drain
My emotions scream
Let me drain my feelings out
Lough like a drain
let me drain!

X Japan - Drain

What else is to be said ?

I'm sick of all this... Completely sick. You'll probably care when my body'll be hanging over the floor. Anyway, everybody starts to care when you're dead, right ? *chuckle* Mastah was the only one still alive, but she has no reasons left to be Mastah. The rest is already dead, useless remnants of nothingness. But I can't lead a meaningless little life, it doesn't suit me. Might as well die, so... Guess it was one life for nothing, let's reset now.

Love can make you do foolish things... so foolish you die soon after. Only to be reborn in the blood of war...

There was a serious choice I had to make lately. It's done. Now I'm working on it.

I just can't stand petty scientists who think themselves and their "power of science" almighty... not that I care, but I find it stupid. That said, maybe I'll tell you someday about how I found myself. Another day, I may tell you what changed about me. And still another day, I might tell you what happened after.

So many things I found out lately... guess nothing's gonna be the same anymore. For the first time in my whole life, I know who I am. I still have doubts and pain, of course, but so less than I used to... feels great being yourself. I know exactly what's going on and what I have to do. And that's a relief, however hard it may be.